My junior year of college, I had to take a class called Exceptional Learners. It briefly covered both special education and gifted education. Our teacher, Mr. Ron, changed my entire life and view of what I wanted my career to look like.
I decided I didn’t want to make a career out of teaching. Of course, I had to finish my elementary degree because it was too late to switch to something else. I thought about pursuing an LCPC certification after getting my bachelors. I graduated in December of 2016 and signed a contract to teach fourth grade in St. Regis for the 2017-2018 school year.
After making the gut wrenching decision to not renew my contract in St. Regis, I applied for probably 100 teaching jobs, got two interviews, two “sorry you don’t have enough experience” calls, and a “sorry we chose another candidate” letter addressed to Ms. Briggs. Needless to say, I do not currently have a contract for the 2018-2019 school year.
My plan B was to move back to Bozeman, go back to making coffee and being a Life Skills Para, and try to bust out my Masters in Special Ed in a year.
Right before I left, my good friend, April, said, “Have you ever considered not going down the teaching path? It seems like God is closing doors for you right now, so it’s something to consider.” This hit me like a ton of bricks.
Then I began the 18-hour drive from Regis to Chanhassen with only Stella to talk to. While Stella is my favorite adventure partner on Earth, she’s not much for conversation. I had a lot of time to think.
I am 100% sure that my calling in this world is to, “be cool and save children.” Now I just have to figure out what that looks like in terms of a career path.
I reflected on this year of teaching. While I fell in love with my kids and watching them learn and grow, I struggled with getting excited about actually teaching.
I was reminded of my thoughts in 2015 when I decided maybe teaching wasn’t for me.
I’m not teaching next year, and it is possible that I will never return to the classroom as a teacher.
I’m praying hard for the discernment to go wherever God calls me. It’s a little scary not knowing where that is. Is this my quarter life crisis?
Go in peace. This mission you are on is under the eye of the Lord.